Well, April just flew right on by! Spring is in the air and I am almost 7 months
out since revision surgery.
Over the last month, I’ve come to realize that I’m sizing
out of clothing pretty quickly. Don’t
get me wrong, this is a great thing.
However, clothing is expensive as hell.
Maybe I’m a snob but I really can’t get on board with buying second-hand
clothing. I just can’t. I make it a point to shop the hell out of a
clearance rack but sometimes you just can’t always get everything you need from
a clearance rack. My mother always tells me that I have a "taste for wine, but money only for beer".
Last month, I went through every article of clothing I currently
own including my spring/summer clothes.
Being that I weighed well over 200 pounds last summer, you can imagine
that nothing fits. I kept maybe 10 tops
that are probably even looser now (I haven’t really been able to wear warm
weather tops because the weather is so fickle in NYC!). The rest of the clothes went to my sister who
has lost weight with RNY and needs clothes just as bad as I do. So, here I am, with the summer approaching
and I have zero clothes that are
appropriate for warm weather. No bathing
suit, no capris, no dresses, etc.
I’ve always loved to shop, even when I was over 200
pounds. I love clothes and I can’t help
it. I’m a shopaholic. There, I said it. My name is Danielle and I have a shopping
problem. Losing weight has only made this
worse. I’m shopping every week for new
clothing items. Granted, I really do
need some summer staples to get by but I also really need a bathing suit, new
bras, new undies, and new shapewear! I
have two weddings coming up in June and I have no dresses appropriate to wear
for a wedding. I have a vacation coming
up in July. I am literally hemorrhaging money. I would rather not eat in order to have money
for clothes. Does anyone else see this
as a problem because I’m beginning to think it is? It is sort of comical but at the same time I
just cannot afford it! I need to save
for vacation fun money (not to mention travel expenses) and for moving costs
which will be happening sometime in September or October.
Really, I think this is a happy problem to have for most
people but not when I’ve always been
a shopping addict. Whatever, it is what
it is and I DO need clothing! I just
have to try to budget better and not spend $100 a week on clothing. I’ve purchased three pairs of capris (1
casual, 2 sateen), a cheap Target bathing suit, two maxi dresses, and 3 jersey
short dresses for summer wear. I have
copious amounts of t-shirts and jeans but who wants to wear jeans in the
summer? I will be rotating those 5
dresses each day of the week haha.
In other exciting shopping news, I’m now a size 12 in
jeans/pants and formal dresses, a size SMALL in shirts (say what?) and a size
medium in jersey/knit dresses. Who would’ve
thought? My weight loss has slowed down
quite a bit but I’m also not being as diligent as I should. I’ve lost 9lbs since my last post in
March. Not terrible, but not exactly
what I want for the next month going forward.
My goal is to lose 10-12 pounds and my belly “pooch” by mid-June. Why?
So I can wear a super sexy, skin tight blue dress that I bought for one
of said weddings I will be attending. I
know it is achievable by busting my ass at the gym and wearing my fat slimming
workout belly belt. I will do it!
(a gratuitous selfie shot in my first ever size small shirt)
I’ve been dabbling with Rent the Runway recently as
well. I have never before thought I
could actually fit into a designer dress but RTR carries some dresses up to
size 16! I’m thinking to myself, what
the hell? Give it a shot! However, it is sort of scary to choose a
dress online and hope to hell one of the sizes they send you (because you get
two) will fit in the short rental period which is usually around 4 days. If it doesn’t fit at all they will overnight
you a new dress but what if THAT one doesn’t fit at all and now it’s the day OF
or the day BEFORE your event and you are super screwed. I’ve been having daily RTR anxiety about this
because I have no idea how designer
dresses will fit and no amount of descriptions and reviews will calm my anxiety
over whether or not this dress will fit ME.
Well, just this week, my anxiety has been quelled. Rent the Runway must’ve read my mind seeing
how many times a day/week/month I was searching on their website (gotta love
online marketing point and click tracking) because they sent an email to visit
the SOHO showroom! What fortuitous
circumstances! I work in SOHO. Okay, I’ll
stop the cheese-fest now. Needless to
say, I made an appointment for $25 which they give back to you as store
credit. All you do is fill out a survey
describing your body type, age, and what you’re looking for and also a few
links to dresses on the RTR website that you like. A style/fit specialist will meet with me at
my appointment after reviewing this information and pull dresses for ME based on what I want. I mean, how amazing
is this? I can try on a few dresses and
see if they fit me at all and get
personal styling tips.
I’m super excited. I’m
sort of concerned that these designer dresses won’t fit me at all but I’ve been
pleasantly surprised by my body and trying on clothes lately so maybe it will
work out. I have another wedding in
October that is black tie formal and I would love to rent a designer gown and
be super fabulous. If RTR isn’t meant
for me, then it isn’t meant for me. I
feel confident and good about where my body is at right now. I am aware that I am curvy and designer
dresses may not fit my body type but I’ll be okay with it. And that is a
big change from where my head was at this time last year. I’ve
said it before and I’ll say it again, the changes to my life brought around by
this surgery have just been amazing. I’m
so glad to have had the courage to stand up for myself and revise.
Now, time to do some online shoe shopping…;) hehe.
My stats thus far:
Pre-Op weight: 234 lbs
Surgery weight: 226 lbs
Current weight: 167.2 lbs
Total loss: 66.8 lbs!!!!!!
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